JasmineLam©

2011-05-08T04:50:00.002+08:00

It's been the second Saturday that I'm leading life like drinking my life away. Nothing major's bothering me but today's.. i don't know, weird. I don't fancy being drunk or anything near but I'm very close to being so today. Mental state.don't know what I'm mumbling now but i really feel quite, down. so- goodnigt.

What are words

2011-05-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

Somehow, I have the urge to do an update. I need a place to let me speak up, but not verbally. I’m been controlling myself, keeping too much, too much for me to handle.

In every relationship, there’s a song. Really loved how he played it, although I never once showed how impressed I was. Now that I started typing, I’m lost for words, the appropriate ones. So… I will continue bottling everything up until we meet again. All I need is somewhere quiet for me to do anything like lying down to star gaze.

Now that we're having a break, I need a break from I-don't-know-what indefinitely.

Hmmmmm... No appropriate heading, cos' it's just plain blabbering.

2011-01-02T15:09:00.002+08:00

Been on a long, long, long hiatus from blogging. Getting a little rusty, but life has been great, nothing to rant about, and sometimes a little too occupied with work to update.

But since it's a brand new year, there are so many things I want to do / start to do. I'll update on that again, but there's something on my mind these few days. No, actually weeks.

I've been terrorized for weeks, so I was thinking... Why not I start terrorizing people, LOL, but it's so un-Jasmine. Why not I fight for myself, my future. Me likeyyy. If the look, height, doesn't fit my expectation, yet I find it attractive, that probably really is the one.

Okay, that's it for today, blabbering done! Hehe. School tomo, have fun people!

I see the fat moon, but where'r the stars?!

2010-10-26T23:16:00.001+08:00

Just home from star gazing, but star gazing fail! So cloudy tonight, great wind and everything but no stars! D: Get back later!

A lot is expressed but you still don't understand.

2010-10-25T20:47:00.004+08:00

School only starts on Thursday for me, so, YAY! But I have no one to hang out with since many are (already) busy with school. &just in case if you haven’t know, my timetable is so awesome, school starts at 9am all days except Monday and for Tuesday and Thursdays, it’s 9am – 9pm. Fantastic or what. That’s why I spend every second (trying) to do anything fun before I get tortured (again)! :D

I don’t know what to update on now since I’ve been hiding a lot recently. Not hiding, just I don’t openly express myself anymore. Things I do, people I meet, people I like, people I dislike, I don’t share as much now. Trust issues? I don’t know.

Will be back tomorrow if I’m not going out or before I go out.

Chilli chilli yum yums!

2010-10-12T22:28:00.004+08:00

I finally got my hands dirty! :D I hardly ever dirty my hands while eating cos' I don't like to use my hands to directly touch food. (&Yes, that includes tidbits. I eat chips using chopsticks too!)

Had chilli crabs just now with the girls! No choice but to dirty my hands. AHA! Jx, be jealous.

I've been wanting to upload a photo but mobile updating was down for the past 2days. So... Here it is! While I was shooting for the automobile firm at the workshop!

Wish I was stick thin and tall, and will remain like that forever.

I don't have a memory loss, I hope. Hehe!

2010-10-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

I realized lah! I realized I haven’t been updating. :P I wasn’t very busy, I just didn’t have anything to particularly mention about and I had no motivation, hehe.

Another reason why I didn’t update was because I really can’t remember what I did for the whole week; I only remember I was out every day except… (was it) Tuesday? My memory’s failing me! Pouts. (I tend to blame the holidays; I lose track of time.)

AH FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF, there’s a baby lizard sitting on the same couch as me! SHIVERS. I got so scared; I froze, forgetting that I could use the TV remote control to hit it, giving it a concussion!

Stopping here! Will get back tomorrow, FOR SUREEEEE.

What's wrong with me, seriously.

2010-10-01T02:33:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling really weird, really unhappy, suddenly, without any reason. I was all smiles today, really.

I very much want to go out for supper, since I'm wide awake and hungry but I don't know, I feel like something's going to happen or something. Damn.

Oh! &anyone who was talking to me on MSN just now, sorry, my lappy died on me.

In the end, we're all pretending.

2010-09-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

I seriously think gonggong's watching over me, protecting me from all danger and giving me many opportunities.

I'm always clumsy and sometimes I'll do ridiculous things like... Ramming into the walls of my home, kick into metal chairs or tables (that's why my pedicures never, EVER last). But ever since the incident, I feel safe, I feel at ease. Then commercial shoots suddenly came knocking on my door, it's something I never expected that would happen to me.

Xiexie gonggong, love you.

Eeek!

2010-09-22T21:33:00.002+08:00

There goes the perrrfect set of nails after 1 wrong cut for 1 finger! Pouts.

Shoot for automobile firm tomorrow! Exxxxcited!

Life of a beezeebee

2010-09-19T02:31:00.004+08:00

This is the best week so far, after all the shit. Yet busiest, check out the time I'm doing this post! I've been so busy, I hardly have anytime to stay home.

I'm not those kinda kids who go out and refuse to go home, I love staying home. I won't be happy if I stay out every single day, but I don't know, I think I've been enjoying being out and running around half of singapore every single day this whole week. Out with the loveeees, went for automobile firm's final casting and eventually getting the assignment to shoot for their branding campaign or something, celebration for Shazzie, meet up with the dearies from JL, casting again and hoping to get the jobs cos' if I really get them then jose already! (Try pronouncing Jose, you'll get what I mean.)

I hope gonggong's happy up there. :D photos of the wake are not even sorted yet! I'm hardly at home!

Beezeebee.

2010-09-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

Kind of busy bee this week. And I can’t wait for tomorrow, day out with the gang and, and and something interesting! So excited (Or eggxited).

Report. LOL!

2010-09-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

I know I have so much to do, but not in the mood to do anything now. I’ve to organize gonggong’s wake’s photos, do the family portrait up also, get myself fairer, and start blogging again.

Oh! &I got myself into deep trouble after swimming or about an hour, I’m now at least 2shades darker than my usual skin tone. That’s all for today, I’ll be back tomorrow. Don’t blame me for not blogging, I hardly even come online these days, after the incident.

2010-09-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

It used to be that I'll do whatever makes me happy. But I don't know what makes me happy now.

Gone with the wind.

2010-09-01T14:29:00.002+08:00

Grandpa passed away this morning. Don’t ask me how it happened because I don’t know too, he was like any other healthy man; loving dad, loving grandpa, loves food, role model to us all.

The wake will be at the block beside my place, so anyone coming down just text me for more details.

Gonggong, you'll be dearly missed. With lots of love.

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I remember when I read about domicile of dependency yesterday i asked mum "so where's gonggong's domicile of dependency since his parents are in indonesia but he's in Singapore" Mum told me "tomorrow you ask gonggong lor." he was supposed to come today! But he'll never come anymore. I won't see him at my place again.

Bibs!

2010-08-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

Updating with mobile.

The photo I took, trying to make bb more relaxed before the surg.

Like what my tweet says, mum went "哇！漂亮的眼睛！" today when I woke up. Pretty eyes on a wrong day! Weren't having any eggxiteeng plans today.

Tweeto Post #3!

2010-08-25T20:07:00.001+08:00

Bb’s going for his surgery tomo! NO MORE CROOKED AND BROKEN NOSE!

Update: He's gonna wake up at 6am for breakfast and prayer. LOL.

Untitled!

2010-08-23T18:24:00.003+08:00

Again, what have I done to deserve the many great things happening and nice people around. Just when I was really worried I-don't-know-what-this-feeling's-called when I couldn't join the girls for shopping due to sighs, bb's stuff, Eunice actually accepted it (well, me being troublesome this time) and decided to go shopping another day. Am sucha wet blanket, but they accepted it! Okay lah, I don't know what I'm rambling about, but I just had a gush of feelings being touched etc.

Kthxbye for reading, I'm on mobile, update again soon. *thank you girlzxzx! Love ya*

SMADS

2010-08-23T15:18:00.001+08:00

Some cheeb fat kid.

2010-08-20T17:31:00.002+08:00

Bb’s hurt and broke his bone in the nose. Cheeb, it’s like crooked now la. (I think that’s his best feature, what a waste.) Heartache till I keep wanting to cry. Sigh.

First time I’m actually interested in a watch!

Mix of random updates that I can think of!

2010-08-19T19:30:00.005+08:00

Finally finished updating the songs section! Troublesome, I took almost 5hours, okay, doing some things in between. (Yet I still can’t shuffle the songs.)

I finally found an awesome photo in my phone, was at the rooftop pool the other day.

Awesome max rightzxzx?! Like the infinity pool! (Almost lah!)

Secret recipe and Häagen-Dazs yesterday for Feng’s birthday.

Bad photo, blame my (too) humble phone.

Appetizer (in shooter cups!) for today! :D Jon loves it, and he even ate mum’s share because he said it’s good and asked why I didn’t make more. (What for make so much; you never liked everything in it. You think very easy to make meh.)

Ransacked the kitchen to look for the shooter cups. It’s brand new, must use it once what, else so wasted, like junk.

That’s all for today! :D long day, yet nothing accomplished.

Enormous anger could lead to my enormous appetite!

2010-08-17T16:03:00.006+08:00

If you’re following me on Twitter, you’ll know I’m very angered by some stupid narrow minded people.

But to cool myself down, I’ll share an email. It’s mad hilarious! From Lawrence few days ago.

Note: I'm not the one behind Apparel Affair, not so great. Haha. But! Visit AA now, awesome stuff this time round, so spoilt for choice. www.apparelaffair.sg (Click on Apparel Affair)

Be back soon!

I wish, when I open my eyes tomorrow I get a new blog layout!

2010-08-13T16:15:00.002+08:00

I need a new blog layout! Someone help pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I still love the one that Eunice made, but I've been using this for close to 2years, time for a revamp!

Tweeto Post #2!

2010-08-08T16:53:00.002+08:00

Over at gramps after brunch, now tea and nonya kueh!

Update in bite size, on mobile!

2010-08-07T19:40:00.003+08:00

Updating on mobile now! Will update on steamboatty with everyone tomorrow or something. Have so many plans on this week, can't wait for breakfast with my folks tomorrow!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! <3

Hair for Hope.

2010-08-05T19:44:00.007+08:00

Feng participated in Hair for Hope. Very impressed! :D &I know I can never be like them, sacrificing beauty for emotional satisfaction.

Photos are already up on Facebook, I just have to share some over here, my first event shoot! :D Not as in I’m an event girl, but I shot, me = fake photographer! And all thanks to Enormousaur for the SLR! Self DI the photos too, Feng is being made flawless because he’s a hero!

Farewell card drawn by you-know-who. Awesome card which says “Dear Hair, so sad that you’re leaving! ): We will miss you very very very badly! ): Anyway, have a safe trip!”

Last few moments with his hair!

And lastly, totally unrelated to Hair for Hope, group photo! :D

Can't wait for steamboatty with everyone tomorrow!

Another selfless soul.

2010-08-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I could never be like her, so selfless. Why do I have to like think for days whether or not to cut my hair when she shaved her head just to gain awareness for cancer. I can give a billion excuses why I can’t shave my head; for example lame reason like because I have to do shoots.

I’m sorry; I just can’t do that, for beauty sake. I’m selfish this way. I wanna be like her someday.

Will upload photos when I get them.

I just need a output.

2010-07-27T22:29:00.001+08:00

I think I can’t take it anymore. The stress hits the brim! Broke down in front of mummy seconds after telling her “Mummy, I don't know why, but I feel very sad suddenly.”

I shouldn’t be typing all these nonsense now, no time to waste.

Tweeto Post #1!

2010-07-24T20:36:00.001+08:00

OH YEAAAAAAAH. Dad bought durians! &watching Nanny Mcphee now, I think I'm gonna cry soon.

Mini update from daily life #2!

2010-07-24T00:34:00.003+08:00

I’ve got so much to share but so little time and I’m like on sleeping pills or something, my eyes are closing after shopping at down with mumsie and met up to dine with dad.

Shopping today is uncool. I haven’t gone for shopping for the longest time in the world and never utilized the Great Singapore Sale. Talk about fully utilizing GSS, == failed badly. Didn’t buy anything, any single thing, except to collect my Ettusais products.

Ettusais Newsletter for June. This shoot is like cool to me, because I've made friends with 2other Jasmines and it's my first publication! (Okay, fine, second. )

Okay, before I turn in or fall asleep in front of my lappy, stupid things I did recently;

- I rammed (if that’s how it’s spelt) into the wall for the past few days. HOME WALL. ==
- I kept having this feeling that I forgot to do something; to bring my hat out.
- Last one, it’s stupid for me to be awake and watch tv.

Okay, actually I did so much more but I can’t remember when I have to type it down. Nightos!

Hmm, so what's for me next?

2010-07-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda disappointed now. Recieved the news of being part of a fashion show for tomorrow when i was still in school.

Like I always do; informed her about my awesome map (birthmark). Hahaha, and I'm no longer involved!

I don't mind how others look at me, I was born with it what. That's why I refused to go for the laser treatment after consultations etc last year when dad forced me to. Maybe I shouldn't carry so much hope on appearing on shows. Afterall, shoots and fashion shows are quite different. :D

Don't worry, I'm not like damnnnnnnnn upset, it's like a matter of fact.

Mini renovation on site! (Songs & Wishes)

2010-07-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

Updated the songs and wishes! At least I’m trying to keep this place alive! I’m going multi-languages this time round, Korean first, Mandarin, English then Cantonese. If you’re waiting for the English, sorry, you’ve gotta wait for the third one.

AH! &to losers who have to go school tomorrow and intending to stay up to watch World Cup tonight, MUAHAHAHA. I’m sleeping in tomo. :D

Major hate, I have an ultra packed schedule the coming week, I’m confused with my plans etc, I realized I really need a planner for me to jot down the events that are gonna take place else I’m gonna disappoint people by not turning up. But lame, who starts their schedule on the planner only after July?

Zooooom!

2010-07-11T03:19:00.001+08:00

Dang, it's Sunday already! (&I'm still not asleep!!!) Why do weekends like fly but weekdays crawl! D: Update again when I wake up.

Hungry!

2010-07-09T23:14:00.018+08:00

Random inspiration that I wanna capture a feeling that I can’t exactly describe in words. &used my webcam ==

I think my bedtime and “feeding time” are like so messed up! I get hungry in the middle of the night and can’t stop eating and I was so tired in school but I’m wide awake now, though I’m like mentally drained out.

Okay, I wanna go eat now.

By the way! Visit Apparel Affair ♥ now! Many awesome pieces, I really like the White & Black "V" spag top and Convertible Dress sooooooo much! Quality is love!

Apparel Affair!

Life in lil' bite size.

2010-07-07T00:49:00.003+08:00

I think I've not been going out, like shopping have fun etc for the longest time. I need a long break, else I'll break.

Okay, updating from my mobile now, here's 2 photos of what Brucey named my GoVenture, the Entrepreneur game.

When your day goes downdowndowndown.

2010-07-01T20:38:00.005+08:00

Such a bad day for me today! My cardholder with my EZlink and matric card disappeared like *POOF* kind. This is not cool.

If you knew about how I lost it you’ll be like “HUH?!” okay, here comes the story.

I tapped my card and held it on the same hand I used to carry my lappy. And that’s what I do usually! Then I walked to a sit and when I wanted to keep them, then I realized “WHERE THE HELL IS MY CARD?!” Awesome or not? So how did I lose it?!

Please, please and please, someone return it to me please? You can like use all the credits inside, just return me my card!

F Accounting.

2010-06-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

So, if you’re on my MSN contact list, you would’ve seen me saying “F accounting”. I really can’t do it. So many people asked me what happened, they’re never seen me saying THE F. But here’s one great response:

You go to the photocopying shop then say "auntie, 给我一本 F Accounting" [Auntie, give me a copy of F accounting.](Because he claimed he say there’s a book called F Accounting.)

Then he continued to imagine the response…

“你要 F Accounting? ...... 四块半。” [You want F accounting? Four-fifty.]

Then he continued, “so if you wanna F Accounting, you just pay a small fee lor.”

Hahaha! WK, you’ve never been so funny. (Am STILL laughing!)

I'm sorry, really. But now, who do I turn to?!

2010-06-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

Sorry dear, sorry for not being there when you needed it most. I’m speechless as much as you are for the disappointment. You’re disappointed by the behavior; I’m disgusted by my behavior too.

Why weren’t we there? Would you still share with us?

I was happy ~~today~~ yesterday, I was enjoying myself ~~today~~ yesterday and everyday. But towards the end of yesterday and the start of today, I felt, why, why did everyone turn to me. I think I am upset too, and disappointed. So, now that everyone turned to me, who do I turn to? I’ve this very sunken feeling, I wanna cry, what if I end like them one day; who do I turn to.

Sighs, dear girl, you weren’t like my best pal or anything close, but I do care for you. I felt a slight (how slight is slight?) heartache every time I heard about you. &bb, do what you really enjoy, you’ll live everyday feeling accomplished; it’s your life, not anyone else’s.

&to my dearest friend. I really like being around you. I can give you all I could. But, why didn’t I today? I don’t know. I’m sorry, sorry.

Life of a lazy ass.

2010-06-27T18:45:00.002+08:00

FAT FAT, me like! :D I found many photos in the wee hours of Friday. Cos I was rushing the photos of Gramp’s present! I'll post more of this surprise photos!

It’s a lazy Sunday! I’ve spent whole of yesterday on doing my nails; both toes and fingers, mask my legs, scrub my face and mask it! I’ve been neglecting it for the entire week and sleeping at 5 or 6am everyday didn’t help.

Today’s the last day for me to rest before I get back to the busy schedule for school! Friday’s photos would be uploaded soon! It’s like Grandpa’s birthday photos, they’re like damn awesome, makes me think how fortunate I am to have such a fun loving family! :D

I’m off rest my eyes! I think the peepers are like irritating me so much, I can’t help but keep tearing out of no reason. Bye! Be back soonish!

Insane time!

2010-06-20T05:27:00.001+08:00

Look at the time of this post! Then you won't blame me for blogging a one liner. Hahaha! Am gonna sleep for a bit before waking to do work!

Contented much!

2010-06-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

What have I done to deserve all the wonderful stuff in the world? :D I’m a happy girl and I’m glad and grateful with what I have now.

Little Ver always does cute stuff and those things make me really happy. Bro got me my fedora! Although I kind of regret that because I don’t have enough matching outfits for that, because he didn’t get straw coloured, he got me black leather weaved kind. But I still love it anyway! :D

Get back tomorrow!

What more could I ask for?

2010-06-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

I’ve had a wonderful time yesterday! :D (Okay, actually the entire week, that’s why I haven’t updated quite awhile.) I don’t have time to reflect on my week yesterday. I was really tired and dropped dead the moment I lied down.

Some photos that Wendy took! More photos when I get it from Joyce.

♥

I can do anything for the things I like, I enjoy and whatever that makes me happy. But I won’t do something that I don’t enjoy even if you give me the world. (Excluding exams, because I have no choice but to accept it.)

You’re one lucky girl, you get to do what you love and enjoy. :D

P.S. Picking up Jonny tomorrow and Bel’s coming over to rack our brains and settle our gifting problem.

I forgot what I wanted to blog about again! My memory's failing me!

2010-06-08T20:43:00.002+08:00

& so bro’s away for another 8days! He’s a really camera shy person and I had to beg, yes, BEG him for 2hours for a photo!

I received the newsletter for only Ettusais members! :D

I can’t wait for tomorrow, meet up with the girls. But… I’m afraid they don’t remember! Gonna text them later!

Holly Jean Makeover Video!

2010-06-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

Video by Holly.

Thanks to Holly, Club Couture, Ettusais, Pink Elephant Labs and NSportal for such a nice experience! &Congrats to Jas Yee! She's the Makeover Angel! :D It's awesome being able to meet Hui Min, Jas, Holly, Sheradine, Shiya and everyone else involved in this event.

More updates about this event after I get all photos! :D Keep yourself entertained with this video first!

Not very cool if you own this phone in this era.

2010-06-04T00:15:00.004+08:00

I’ve announced everywhere that I have an awesome phone.

But the fact is, it really sucks when your phone is just useless scrap metal that can only connect you and the world using calls and texts. Oh! And not forgetting the most important bonus tool; the infrared!

The infrared must have been one of the best inventions around, but… just not in this era okay?

No Bluetooth, self explanatory? If you still don’t understand, that means, it’s really quite useless, which phone in this era doesn’t have Bluetooth? Excluding corded house phones, but even my house cordless phone has Bluetooth function!

It really sucks when you have a phone, but you can't surf the net and tweet on the go, can’t Facebook on my bed every night before I sleep and first thing when I wake up. D: and it’s not helping when the phone is like more than one inch thick ah…

I’ll definitely update tomorrow! I’m freed!

Holly Jean's Makeover Preview!

2010-06-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

Preview to Holly's Shoot! :D Stay tuned!

It's been a long long time since I last did something I enjoy, I'm gonna have my break end of this week! Date me people. :D

Rants!

2010-05-31T21:14:00.002+08:00

Okay, blogging now is not cool. I've been trying to study since Saturday but till today, I'm still stuck at Chapter 1 of computer studies.

I study by understanding the entire concept and the thing must be able to make sense, so if the thing doesn't, I'm really dead. I'm not one who studies by memorising. If I knew the concept, I could easily argue my way out using my own words. @#*+*#*, not cool to be so active online everytime when it's the exam period, bye.

Bits and pieces and lost my remaining inspiration.

2010-05-28T20:39:00.005+08:00

Was out with family last Sunday! &ate at my favourite place of all time, ever since I was young I liked that place because there were no cats! :D Awesome place with great food.

Oh no, I forgot what I want to blog about although it was still fresh in my mind the previous minute.

But anyway, I’m not blogging for like a week because I was really, truly, honestly busy; no joke. But guess what, my exams’ the coming week and I have no motivation to study at all. I haven’t started on anything and not intending to start today.

I’ll stop here first! I’ve really lost my inspiration at the moment! REALLY.

P.S. Enjoying fruits now, if anyone could cut fruits for me every day, all-day, unconditionally, please send your resume over, I’ll consider to employing you.

So what now?

2010-05-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

I don't just want anyone to hold.

I'm grateful for everyone who cared, the jacket was a surprise!

Just for laughs!

2010-05-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

Mini update from daily life #1!

2010-05-17T21:27:00.001+08:00

Sounds wrong much? :D

I love how I live my life. :D

2010-05-16T02:16:00.006+08:00

What if one day someone asks you this "How different do you look from everyone else?" How would you answer?

I actually replied "I have two eyes, one nose, one mouth and a pair of ears. And oh yes, not forgetting the big birthmark on my leg." Hahaha, must have been too tired. But I really think it's cool to have it; tell me, who has a map on their leg?!

But there are times I wished my skin was flawless, but it was when I didn't know how to appreciate what I have.

I have no intention to remove it, I don't need to go through so much pain just for superficial people. I don't live for anyone's approval. I'm happy with my body, I find that it doesn't get in the way I live my life. (That's all that matters, no?)

I even think I'm rather lucky. :D I don't know why I'm sprouting so much nonsense on my comfy bed. Abrupt (Jiat pronounces it as "arup") end, I think I want to sleep to remove my bags on the eyes!

New playlist! Love it or get lost. :D

2010-05-13T20:47:00.002+08:00

I’ve changed my songs on this space! I like all so much and I was in a dilemma on the sequence of the songs until I realized that I can actually put it on shuffle mode (new on the program).

School’s been great, life is too. But it just can’t be compared to the holidays, I was on a winning streak during the holidays; series of consecutive successes and run of good luck. :DDD

Abrupt end because I really need to eat.

P.s. Songs are oldies! Too bad if you don't like it; I DO.

Love means never having to say you’re sorry.

2010-05-09T13:29:00.000+08:00

Been quite some time since I last update, I was lazy, I admit. I want to get so many books now after waiting for the girls at Times for an hour at Times.

Love means never having to say you’re sorry.

And I chanced upon this phrase when I was swimming in the pool of books! :D I like the phrase, and I can still remember it after 2days (with my fish memory).

I don’t like it when you have to live apologizing to the same person umpteen time just because you’re afraid of making the person upset. You can’t speak your mind. You’re afraid of saying the wrong thing just because the person’s sensitive, too sensitive.

Love is speaking your mind, without restrictions. They both accept each other for what they are.

I can’t post up photos yet because fat Teng has yet to update! HAHA, I’ll update as soon as the photos are up! :D

Speak up or not?

2010-05-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so lazy now, I don’t want to do my tutorials and all I want is eat. Having so many cravings recently!

Finally gonna meet up with the girls this Friday! I’ll update again soon. I know I have something to say, I very much want to speak up but I just don’t know where to start. I fear.

HUNGRYYYYYY!

2010-04-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

I’m afraid that I have nothing to look forward to on Fridays after tomorrow past. HAHAHA.

I’m hungry lah! I had my brunch only at 5.30! NOW I AM DAMN HUNGRY.

HAHAHA!

2010-04-25T23:51:00.002+08:00

Oh my god, I really think I have a MSN artist around me. And never fails to make my day with drawings (via MSN). HAHAHA!

Artist's interpretation: To show how sorry he is.

Self explanatory~.

Artist's interpretation: Too happy till he flies!

Lose out on plans! D:

2010-04-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

I like to do this like normally. LOL! Not just for photography purposes.

Today’s plans are very much… ruined. Probably due to my laziness, I had a sore eye. (I don’t have the habit of telling myself “Oh, it’s 22nd of the month, time to change my monthly contact lens!”) I always change it by gut feeling; sometimes I can change it at the second week and sometimes… a little over a month.

Or maybe it can’t be referred to as laziness, but I just can’t find another word to replace it. But if I have to ~~note down~~ remember every single detail about my life then my brain will be filled with all sorts of useless dates (and numbers).

So I’ve missed quite a bit of events today, tea meet-up and Ee Chai’s birthday. That would also mean I missed meet up with the JL people. [MOST IMPORTANTLY CHIA HUI!]

DO CONTINUE READING, OR JUST READ THIS PART OF THE POST IF YOU’RE NOT INTERESTED AT ALL.
(Chia Hui’s the funniest person on Earth; she’s born to be like… THAT.) So all this happened at work the other time.

Chia Hui to customer(s) :
“Hi, are you a customer?”
“Hi, are you a card or are you a member?” (She must’ve meant CARD MEMBER.)
“Do you want to buy a tote bag OVER THERE *points using her pinkie*?”

And the way she does “roll eye” is classic. You could ask me to demo. HAHA!

I really want to dress the way I'm comfortable with!

2010-04-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

I’m so gonna kill myself if my Care Person tells us that we cannot wear flip flops, tank tops or shorts. Gaya’s class was actually told that when they have APEL class. The most ridiculous thing is that… cannot see bra strap?!

THEN DON’T WEAR LAH!

I hope mine doesn’t tell me this; else I’ll have to dress up every day, which is so not me. I love going to school with shorts, flip flops and any piece of top I have/see in the wardrobe.

Enough ranting, but I won’t continue updating on school, because I have only been to school for two and three hours respectively for the past 2 days.

Open my eyes big to spot small sunrise!

2010-04-17T20:28:00.003+08:00

I’m really falling asleep like soon, so I better finish this fast. I haven’t slept since 8am yesterday. :D

Had gathering at East Coast and stayed overnight. It was great, except for the fact that there were rats, twice. And Tigger pee-ed on to Teng and her hair! HAHAHAHAHA!

Photos would be uploaded in batches this time round, Eunice has the photos.

I was hoping to see the sunrise, but it was really cloudy, so… kind of wasted my energy to keep myself awake! But it was great nonetheless.

Had shoot with Kyria and Emile that day and I met the cutest bitch ever, beside the one that I saw at the pet shop that could ballet. Now I love dogs even more!

Am grateful for whatever I have! :D

2010-04-15T12:26:00.001+08:00

This is the Rain! I know it doesn’t bear as much resemblance as in real life lah!

Not so awesome timetable, but it’s definitely better than the previous few. I have a 3hour break alone!

I haven’t really thought how it would be like without the usual people in the same class! Now I think I’m going to lose a lot. Like gossip partner, webcam partner, Mandarin speaking partner etc! AWWW! Hate. Lol.

I’m in my cheery mood already, I guess. It’s a better option to smile than to frown! Because I have so much more to be happy about! :D Busy days ahead, very packed plans! Shoot later at night, then out the whole day with the gfs and Winona and gang from morning for tomorrow, picnic on Sunday!

I look back, realized how fortunate I am. Am grateful for all I have.

This is what awesome people do.

2010-04-14T21:26:00.001+08:00

Update! This is what awesome people do, seriously.

I AM STILL AFFECTED, even when typing the title. D:

2010-04-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

It’s still very much heart wrenching. I don’t know why I am so affected this time round, probably because I don’t want someone to justify the fact, I just want to know it myself and that’s it. It’s not like I didn’t know this all along.

I’m leading a great social life now. Nothing near crazy partying, but at least I know people around me are nice and real. But it’s one of those very attached friend I have that put me in such weird feeling. Why put self esteem on top of our friendship.

Self esteem; opinion you have of yourself and your value as a person. Does it matter so much to you? Does what you call “winning” me give you so much satisfaction. It puts you in bad light instead, I think.

All just because you wanted the kick of victory (which I think you did not). Think about it. I am still affected lah. BLAH. D: WE ARE NOT YOUR BENCHMARK.

Work at John Little; brought me a lot of happiness.

2010-04-13T14:38:00.006+08:00

I’m finally free to do what I want… for a week! :D I’ve ended the event at John Little Expo, and one week’s left before school starts! POUTS.

I was really happy when the event ended, but now I very much want to work. I don’t know why, the awesome people that I meet is like unimaginable. The great company with girlfriends and the people I just met. Although it’s only till the very last day that some people start to open up!

Happy that I’m in the same class as Jiat, Nisha and Feng! :D Awesome maxxxx. But Gaya, Brucey, Gy and Shaz are like… D: Sean too! No longer in the same class!

Gonna post some photos~, will be back for more updates!

Went to the temple with Eunisi on day before event started! I’m not very religious and my family doesn’t have a religion. But I don’t know; I enjoy learning about and doing very traditional stuff. &Seafood Harvest at Bugis Junction after that! Had to wear like pants and I wore long sleeves in insanely hot weather, mad or not.

Playing with her jelly lens while waiting for food, happy kid!

I told you I was working at John Little, no joke. I want to experience many things, I don’t want to like stick with the same routine/lifestyle/whatever-you-call-it. So far I’ve tried a few jobs but my ultimate love is still shoots and stuff like that. I didn’t really like the work part of the Expo job, but if I ever work with John Little again, it’d only be the company/people factor, like I said, the people I meet is unimaginably awesome.

And did I mention that I went for my Dior/Straits Times/ URBAN shoot on my off day? :D Another kaixin maxxx. I know it looks kind of “wayang”-ish but, I hope it turns out right!

Caught an awesome sunset right after work! (Photos just don’t do the scene justice.) The sculpture over there gave me a really bad feeling though. Like in she’s in a distress or something.

Then last day at Expo while and after tearing down! D: But we went for dinner together at Eighteen Chefs. :D

I wonder if Gordon still visits my blog. He looks so much like Gordon! And shy when I complimented his teeth (implant).

I declare that I put in A LOT of effort in blogging. Just because I want to concisely record what I did, I spent like 3hours and forsake my lunch! :D

2010-04-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been updating! Work is squeezing us all dry! Travelling is a ultra big problem.

Received a call while working today! I'm shortlisted for a lala! BUT! Not decided/confirmed yet. D: i really hope so much that i'll get it. D: wo de mama ya. I want it sososososososososo much.

Tell you where I'm working at soon. (:

2010-04-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hope the photo turns out great. It's my first mag/paper shoot, don't want it to be shitty. But somehow, i didn't like it. I'm not a fan of dramatic make-up and hair-do. It's a fab drama/prom make-up but it's just not meeee. I hopeeeee it turns out fine! :P gonna zonk out now, work tomorrow.

2010-03-31T23:36:00.003+08:00

It feels good when your back aches really badly and you lie on the bed to blog. Actually no, it doesn't feel good.

I'm all excited for tomorrow's Dior shoot, that's all. Not forgetting that I'm really having great time working with the gfs.

To those who cared, and one who don't.

2010-03-26T17:21:00.001+08:00

I really love all of you who’re genuinely caring, being happy for me. I repeat: I really can tell whether one’s really feeling this way or just putting on an act.

For those who genuinely care, when they say “Don’t bother you already.” They say that because they’re really afraid of taking up your time. But the other people tell you the same statement which means “I don’t want to talk to you already, nothing to say anymore.”

Then why put on a fake front and say ‘don’t bother you already’?! I like truthful people; I’d rather they say “We’ll catch up again soon! I’m off to bed!” Saying ‘don’t bother you already’ is like telling me “I know you are busy till you cannot talk to me anymore”, that’s YOUR assumption. If the respondent is replying at the usual rate then I don’t see why you should say that and assume that he/she is goddamn busy.

Then when they get the same treatment from the respondent then they think that the reason why the respondent said that was to patronize them or let them have a taste of their own medicine. The respondent probably was really afraid of taking up his/her time!

I like living in the “straightforward” society. Why not be frank and tell people how you really feel? I think being pretentious is a chore; you have to rephrase every single thing that you want to say and make it sound nice (and fake).

This issue kind of pissed me off yesterday. (& you know who you are, and I know you look at my space) Why do you have to make it seem like I need rest, I need do my work, I need go get busy with my stuff but the fact is that YOU need to? I really don’t know how to express how irritated I was; neither do I know how to express what is wrong.

This issue made me so angry but I tolerated for awhile then tweeted and FB. Within 3minutes I was laughing and continuing my happy-day. :D

I can’t tell you how happy I am and how fortunate I know I am. With friends I know at different times of my life cheering me up, telling me things that I wouldn’t forget in a lifetime.

I am STILL happy, over what I have and happily anticipating whatever’s coming. “Then continue tweeting since you’re happy now why stop being happy” I like this, totally made my (end-of-the) day.

Dior called!

2010-03-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

I tell you, this is mad awesome.

MY WISH CAME TRUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~ Thank you Ver, your prayer may have worked! :D

I really (really really really really really really really really) hope that Dior or SPH calls me tomorrow. D:

2010-03-24T21:56:00.004+08:00

I’m excited for training tomorrow! Finally working with the girlfriends! :D &New experiences coming for me.

But I am kind of upset that I got this job, because I’ll miss my chance for the Straits Times’ shoot. WTF, Dior leh. D: Once in a lifetime! D:

I’ll update tomorrow if we get home early!

I really (really really really really really really really really) hope wish pray beg that Dior or SPH calls me tomorrow. D:

HEN SHEN QI.

2010-03-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

I am really tired to do updates today. Had insomnia and slept later than 3am last night and woke up to find 7missed calls and 3texts from K! HAHAHAHAHA.

Urgent shoot, and guess what! I BATHED WITHIN 45MINUTES TODAY!

Okay, pictures from the previous shoot with Cindy!

How can someone be so fair and have flawless skin. WLAO.

Okay, I am angry with the ending of Cruel Temptations. I AM ANGRY. Still. [The word “still” at the back of sentences reminds me of Ris Low.]

Smelly girl, I posted this in retaliation.

2010-03-21T20:43:00.001+08:00

Major irritation to my nose! Smelly woman webcam-ing with me. &That reminds me that I haven’t been webcam-ing since exams started!

Cos the last time was when Brucey and I sat beside each other. == (YES, webcam-ing when we’re sitting side by side.)

Long update below, SCROLL DOWN!

Sucha long post! I'm having my initial love for blogging back!

2010-03-21T18:56:00.004+08:00

I need to clarify! I didn’t not update because I was lazy (the usual case). I was fei-chang-de busy. I’m not home most of the days. D: I didn’t stay home for my favourite pastime – hibernating.

Like loads@$%@$(%&#% of photos to upload.

I seriously very much want to update my blog every day, but reaching home late, feel sleepy and still need to update – not fun, not cool. So now, I forgot what I wanna say already. But overall, life has been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. Good food, nice people around and that includes my all time loveees and meeting awesome people, have fun every day. I seriously don’t mind re-living it. (But I rather not lah, cos I want to enjoy the joy that’s coming~)

Out with Gaya, Jiat, Shaz, Nisha, Brucey & Crayon on Tuesday! But… we really don’t have any photos. Or did we? But no, quite sure. Didn’t hang out very long, but every minute was well spent. :D I really really, don’t want to be separated with the class next term! D: &class allocation will be out soonish (I just don’t know when). MAJOR SADNESS.

Wednesday dating with Eunice! (I feel someone stalking us! Cos the sick girl texted me and exposed herself!) It’s been some time since we last did that, like shopping, talk, and movie. (Damn school.) Okay, stalker, we’ll go again with you! &after 1month then we visit you, else if we go now we’ll probably mess up your house, disturb you, make you suffer insomnia for the next 3months.

Eu-ni-si~~~

People who’re mutual friends would have seen the photos on Facebook, the reason why most photos don’t have my eyes focused on the lens in because there’s a mirror behind Eunice! I love looking into the mirror when I eat/do anything as long as there’s a mirror.

Friday out with the girls; Kyria & Cindy. Had Seoul Garden and made my bag (includes every single thing in it: Book, shawl, my 4pouches) and I smell like food! But it was a great day hanging out with them, gossiping and stuff! Not forgetting searching for blings for their phone, gonna bling them the coming Thursday.

Yesterday really tire me out. Early in the morning at 5 I was already awake to prepare for my shoot with Joe and Jiawei at Yishun. Imagine from my place to Yishun… Plus! What time I reach home the previous night! No wonder they kept capturing me with my eyes closed. Okay, ignore all the nonsense in front, the main point is: I WORKED WITH RAIN! Rain, yes, Rain. ♥♥♥ I’ll upload the photos after I get them from Joe. Everyone there yesterday has names starting with J; Jasmine, Joyce, Joe, Joceline, Jiawei!

Then rushed to Gramps’! Cos we’re having K session. D: They had picnic in the morning lor! Which is unfair, I’ve always loved picnics. But it rained so they claimed they didn’t have picnic AT ALL, how trustable is that?! I don’t know, they probably had picnic for awhile then changed plans and went for bowling.

I was watching a movie about this gay couple on the tv last night, but fell asleep halfway! D: I kinda liked that movie lor... Slept too late and I just woke up, I am super duper hungry now, so BYE. Will be back tomorrow, kinda sure. (Thank god shoot today is cancelled! Else I’ll look like a vampire.)

What should I do about my hair~ D:

2010-03-14T16:52:00.009+08:00

I finally got my music on the blog working again. (Am so lazy to do anything about the previous idiotic player.) So that means, NEW AWESOME PLAYLIST.

I still think I look shitty with my hair let down. &what’s worse is that I just did a shoot yesterday with my hair let down, not clipped like usual! WORST THING IS; it’ll be used for web publication. Okay, laugh all you want, I don’t care! LOL.

Check out Apparel Affair on Monday, new collection coming up. Pretty Cindy is back for shoot for Apparel Affair. [&Ya, you can laugh at my shitty straightened hair at the same time.]

I think I’m going to buy a hair straightener, or anyone willing to sponsor? I think I look okay off-the-camera with straightened hair as compared to my not-so-straight-and-I-don’t-know-where-is-it-curling-to-hair currently.

I’ll update those behind the scenes photo after Cindy tags me on photos! Be back soon-ish.

I wanna redo my Year 1 badly!

2010-03-12T12:59:00.002+08:00

I’ve got so many things on my mind now but I don’t know where to start!

First, casting yesterday was good, although I didn’t get the job. I’ve seen like someone (female) 2heads taller than me! Being the shortest, most inexperienced, and youngest there, I’m not upset that I didn’t get the job because I never saw so many tall (& beautiful) people in my life before, all at once.

Then it’s results today! I think I could have been the last in class, although I did better than last semester. I didn’t study much, so I couldn’t blame anyone right?

Ah, I am so confused now. Take what I’m going to say next seriously please. Is it possible to redo Year 1 from scratch?

No joy and contentment lah!

2010-03-08T20:04:00.000+08:00

I feel no joy eating the food I cooked and no contentment that dad liked it. Because cooking when you feel super unwell is #@$(#* %^.

Additional layout!

2010-03-07T15:23:00.001+08:00

I realised my blog is not Mozilla Firefox-friendly. The whole layout looks shittier than how it looks from my phone; from my phone it looks a million times better!

But anyway, just out of boredom, a picture’s added on the address bar! (Next to my blog address) Go find it. *Only applicable on Mozilla Firefox.

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Update: And I just, just realised, on Google Chrome, the site looks a little better than on Mozilla Firefox, but still shitty, shittier than on Internet Explorer (I like using IE most~)!

♥Dear girl, this is for you.

2010-03-06T18:06:00.002+08:00

Everything’s going to be back to before, a new chapter for you like what “Mei Mei” said. But it won’t be the same, I know. We couldn’t help you when you shivered, teared/cried, when you were in pain, all we could do was to be with you (but just to see you like that).

You’re brave, my girl. Though you couldn’t take the pain, but you’ve made it. (You don’t think that we didn’t know what happened inside! *Smirks. ) What’s left in the battle is to let go of the past and move on.

Whatever doesn’t kill you just makes you stronger.

Because we haven’t experienced it before, we don’t know how to comfort you.
Because you’re strong, we know you’re gonna overcome this period of time which is tough, real tough.
Because I’m going to get emotional again, I don’t want to say more.
We’re going to stay by your side, always there when you need us.
We've always hung out together, and still will.
You have to be strong, stay strong, (for everyone who care & yourself)
♥Because we love you.

Awesome hair, but no platform to show off.

2010-03-02T00:04:00.001+08:00

The purpose of the photos are to hao-lian [(show off) I like to use this phrase recently] my great hair at night. D: SO LATE IN THE NIGHT.

So late that I can’t go out now to show off unless I go for supper.

Exam load shit! IT'S FINALLY OVER!

2010-02-26T18:17:00.000+08:00

Back home without movies! I’m going out later anyway.

I’m now free from the exam load shit. So, it also means more updates on blogs. I can still remember what I did in the past; blogging so much during exam periods and that includes during ‘O’s and going to Alvin’s place to study and end up playing Twisters and more.

I didn’t blog this time round, neither have I studied much. FML. Get back again, tomorrow or something. I’M GONNA GET GOOD FOOD.

By the way YP asked me out for drinks just now but I think it’ll be weird; I don’t like drinking with people I don’t know (very) well. So leave a comment or text me if you’re available anytime for drinks so we can go together if he asks again!

New year! But what about exams?

2010-02-12T21:33:00.002+08:00

I’m gonna wear this on one of the days! :D More on Apparel Affair!

I’m so excited~. I’ll be moving over Bel’s place tomorrow, and we can have fun! :D Reunion dinner and talking till we fall asleep!

But the thing is… It’s exam like right after the few days of visiting. So when do I study? @#^%$&

Suggestions! URGENTLY.

2010-02-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

I need some supper suggestions like urgently! LIKE NOWWWW. Tag/text me, thanks!

I’m hungry again. D: Like just 30minutes ago I was eating something. At this rate I think I might need to photoshop my photos very soon. HAHA!

Happy till I wanna fly.

2010-02-07T00:25:00.001+08:00

I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO MONDAY!~ :D Monday's like coming in... Less than 24hours time.

Char siew is so dead!~

2010-01-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

I’m so glad that we (me and Gaya) are done with Tort already! The situation of AHEM* seems interesting now!

But damn, my backache’s back again! All thanks to the very packed schedule. Get back again soon, dinner time!

Randomania.

2010-01-24T10:03:00.002+08:00

I miss my princesses a lot. Times when I couldn't do anything really sucks. My girls, & not forgetting the 2guys. D:

2010-01-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

Photo of boredom during Tort. Unedited, including purple hue.

Time alone, time to blog and now, time to get back to do work.

2010-01-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

It feels so good when you have time on your own, alone. Not rushing to go school or anywhere. The clothes I’m wearing smells so good, temperature of the air-conditioning is great, what more can I ask for?

I feel so cheery suddenly, even when my shoot scheduled last minute at 1am was cancelled at 12pm. NICE. I only ask for…

NO HOMEWORK & PROJECTS. School please hear me, thank you you.

Keep checkin' back!

2010-01-16T22:48:00.001+08:00

It’s been such a long time since I updated from the computer. But it’s not because I’m being lazy or anything like that, I hardly have any time to sleep already, HOW TO BLOGGGGG. Haha!~

I have a lot to say but my brain’s too tired to do any processing. I think this rate of updating will go on for like another week? I don’t know, might just do random updates. SO…

JUST KEEP CHECKIN’ BACK!

Aww.

2010-01-10T01:33:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why, even though when I'm so tired and on the verge of falling asleep I still want to blog on my mobile. Was talking with Eunisi about the question she used to ask me. Now I probably will. Aww, 有人那么不要求回报地对你好，不好吗？And for the first time I'm really influenced by people; she made me want to get a chef boyfriend. == Nights world!

Zzzz. I need to sleep!

2010-01-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

I’m so looking forward to Friday and Saturday! Open house and dinner with the loves after that! :D EU-NI-SI, Saturday want or not? Or Friday midnight! WHOOOOO.

Eh, I very tired now, shall go sleep first. (Tell me how long I haven’t slept more than 5hours?)

Despite being angry, post shall be positive.

2010-01-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, 'it' came just right on new year's day and right at 12am. I must make everything sound positive in this post because it's my first post of the year! No matter how angry I am because it came. Aw.

Bye client interview!

2009-12-29T22:15:00.003+08:00

Why is everyone so happy hanging out at our “favourite hangout” today? Because Client Interview’s OVER! :D

Good news! I think my blog’s virus issue is settled now. I deleted some codes. Feedback to me okay, thanks!

Should I?

2009-12-28T10:50:00.001+08:00

I'm hesitating whether to dress up nicely for school today or not. Since today's such a nice day.

Baby! Ni hui lai le!

2009-12-26T13:26:00.002+08:00

KAIXIN LAAAAAAA~

OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYGOD, baby, you’re back! :D Life’s great now, but quite fucked at times also. So contradicting.

I’ve got my new phone, so I can type my space easily now. Baby’s back by my side already. NO LONGER SPAM. @#$%&#@$(^.

Okay, so now that I’m happy and free, I shall go send my group mates important stuff already. Get back real soon! :D I can't wait to blog again.

Surprised Kitty. <3

2009-11-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

Probably the only cat that I find cute. (With exceptions of Doraemon and Hello Kitty.)

Rain rain.

2009-11-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

Had a damn sweet dream about Rain la. One thing extremely freaky is that every time when he’s going to appear on the front pages of newspapers or exclusive reports I would dream about him the day before. :D Otherwise he never appears in my dream. How cool is that.

Okay la, I’m very busy now. I’m going to look at my Asian boys already.

P.s. Blogger is turning cranky again, I'll update soon if it gets better! :D

Rain rain.

2009-11-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

Because I learnt how to NOT be angry when you piss me off. That's why I can speak freely now.

2009-11-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

Who would you choose? Someone who never fails to piss you off every single time you try to have a heart to heart talk or down to the most minor thing or anyone who never fails to put a smile on your face.

一定要吵架才能过活吗？(The answer I gave – SIAO.)

Photo!

2009-11-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

Now this photo's even cooler than before. LOL. So comic-y.

Boreddddddddddd!

2009-11-14T11:08:00.002+08:00

If it will upset the other party when they find out, it’s considered cheating. So if you have to hide it, don’t do it.

I've something with pinching noses of any little thing.

Credits to Mar's Little Reindeer.

I’m bored now. I woke up too early. D: Then I don’t have Eunice to disturb; she abandoned me and fled to Thailand to look for elephants.